For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33

I'm not interested in giving my son money. Though I have an account that will be strictly for his financial needs when he goes to college, that money is only for that, an education. I want my child to understand that while I'm supposed to be a provider,and will provide for him financially, God is OUR provider. I am only able to provide for him because God first has provided to ME the ability to work, and make a living. God has equipped me so that I can equip Logan. I'm blessed to be a blessing to others, and that is what I want Logan to understand. Money is not OURS. It's Gods. And more than anything, I want him to understand that God will provide it ALL! From our financial blessings, to our abilities, our everything. The LORD sustains us! Money does not. When I leave this earth, I'm not interested in how much money I'll leave Logan. I won't even begin to entertain that thought. I want to leave a LEGACY, I want to leave him Jesus.

Something happened on November 15th, 2009 that changed me. On this particular day, women gathered at Paradise Cove,Lake Grapevine, to throw the most intimate, creative, beautiful baby shower I have seen. The leaders of Embrace Grace put so much time and energy into this baby shower, but what was most obvious to me was the HEART that each woman poured into it. I almost didn't make the baby shower as I was on "bed rest" at the end of my pregnancy. Something kept telling me, "Go! Just go." So, I took it very easy and hobbled my way around as little as possible. The cake, the favors, the food,the gifts, the prayer, encouragement, the LOVE and the GRACE that was showered into the lives of each and every young woman there blew me away. You see, just a few nights before the baby shower I was beginning to stress because there were "things" that I did not have yet, for Logan. I began to worry about not having each and every thing I would need. As a Mother, (a pregnant one) go through a period of time called "nesting". This is the time when the Mother gathers everything and then some that's necessary to provide for her offspring. I think I washed, rewashed, folded, refolded, organized by season, color, size, more than ten times. (It was overboard!) I started to have feelings of doubt, and started asking God if I was truly ready for this!? It was God that kept telling me to go to that shower. He wanted to show me something that day, and most of all I believe He wanted me to trust Him. That HE would PROVIDE. Women (that I didn't even know!) gathered around me and my mom at a table COVERED with gifts for me and Logan. There were bags, boxes, swings,diaper bags, clothes, diapers, a carseat, it was unbelievable. These women not only showered us with gifts, but they were part of a small group that had been praying diligently for me and my precious son for months. That evening mom and I unloaded the car full of gifts. I'll never forget sitting in the floor as I "reopened" each gift, and reread cards. My eyes flooded with tears as I sat there looking at all of things that were on my "list" to buy. I realized that day that GOD ALWAYS PROVIDES!! I was totally overwhelmed and so thankful for these women that helped remind me, HE WILL MEET ALL of our needs. I actually went into labor the very next morning at around 10:00 a.m. You see, God knew I didn't really NEED all those things, they were just things. But God knew my heart, my fears, the doubts of not being able to give my child the very best. And I am confident He wanted to show me that I COULD do this! He called me to this, to Motherhood. He CHOSE me for this. Today as I shop for the Embrace Grace baby shower that will be thrown October 31st, 2010 almost one year later, I am realizing just how blessed we really are. I'm so thankful I can be a part and help these young women that may be facing trials, tumultuous situations, or doubts, as they enter into the sweetest journey, Mommyhood.