April 5th, 2011
2 years ago today, April 5th 2009 was the day I learned I was going to be a Mother. I was going to
give birth to a child, bring forth a little person into this world.
I wish I could tell you that I was overjoyed, and that happiness filled my heart to the brim; but I wasn't, and it didn't. I wish I could tell you that I was calling up everyone I loved to share the good news, but I didn't. A part of me was, but that part was also heartbroken, shameful, unsure, and fearful. It was my dream to be a Mother. I
longed to have children, to have a family. But why
now ?
1 year ago today, I started a new job. I realized the date on the drive to work that morning and spent that day in awe of God's promises, and faithfulness. Before I left the office that day, I sat down and wrote out what God had done in our lives over the course of one year. I fought the tears until 5 o'clock and cried relentlessly on the drive to pick up Logan. "Thank you God", I kept saying. "You are faithful."
I had been in dentistry prior to my pregnancy, but knew when I received the phone call at the end of March 2010 I was being called to this place. This would not be an ordinary job. I remember that day, so well. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I asked those who are close to me, to pray. Come to think of it, I probably even asked a few strangers to pray! It became so evident that I was being called to this position at Fellowship Church. I had no experience whatsoever, and was accustomed to working chairside with dentists and oral surgeons. I am a Science "Guru", so this was going to be much different.
Quickly, my passion for women, children, and families began to grow immensely. My purpose began to unfold. I don't know exactly what my future holds, but I don't need to. My Father has fulfilled every desire of my heart to this point. I am the Mother to the most incredible little boy I've ever met. I have a beautiful loving family and loyal friends that you cannot put a price tag on. I have people in our life that want the best, Gods best, for us. I love my job, and it blesses me in a new way every single day.
God is faithful.
If you're ever doubting anything, any circumstance, situation, finances, relationship,your purpose, your dreams... take comfort in this verse.
God has created rivers in the dry wasteland! Isaiah 43:19 says,
For I am about to do something new
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness.
I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.
2 years ago, I thought my life was coming to an end. Little did I know, it was just beginning. I needed to seek Him, and receive His provision and purpose for my life. He was about to do something NEW in my life.
And He will do the same in yours.
